In my New Charmed Life post, I told you guys about my new Medium lifestyle. I've been posting things on Facebook, so that people can learn more about it, and to let them know what I've been going through. It is important, that I get the message out to family and friends. I really need lots of support! Though, I went public with this a few months ago, It was not the first time it was brought up.
When I first started to awaken, I tried to tell my mom about it twice, but she wasn't very accepting of it. She just kind of brushed it off, and treated it, as if it was my imagination gone wild. Being that, I am a creative person, and I do have a pretty big imagination, I can't say that I blame her for that. I even thought the same thing. I mean, it's not every day your child comes to you and says, -Hey mom, guess what? I'm a Medium!-. It would be a natural reaction for any parent.
Then in December, I guess you could say, I had a major panic attack. I sent a message to a group of my friends, and I spilled my guts. That did not go well! They had no clue what I was talking about, and I think they all thought, I had gone nuts. To be completely honest, I don't blame them, because... I kinda did. I was just as confused as they were.
Well, I have a perfectly, good explanation for why I flipped out.
What was happening to me was, I was going through a spiritual awakening, and it scared me. I was manifesting, and all of the bizarre things that I was experiencing caused me to panic. I couldn't figure out how to explain it, because none of it was making any sense to me either.
It made me very sick. I had what's called psychic flu, and everything was changing so fast. It was very traumatic! As awful as it might sound, it is all part of the awakening process, and it had to happen. This is why I like to refer to it as, a rude awakening.
My body, my mind, my soul, and my whole life, completely changed, right before my eyes! It was as if, somebody snapped their fingers, and all of a sudden, everything stopped making sense.
What was going on was, I was experiencing a vibrational shift, and my psychic senses were awakening. All of the negative energy, and the toxic stuff from my past was coming up, and was being purged out of me.
My sleeping patterns changed. I was waking up in the middle of the night, and it would take forever for me to get back to sleep. I started having lots of very vivid dreams, and I was also having premonitions. Things started to become more synchronized. There were lots of synchronocities! It got to the point where, I decided in my world, there is no such thing as coincidence.
I became very sensitive to EVERYTHING! I couldn't watch TV much. There were certain things I had to stay away from, because I was very hypersensitive to the negativity, the violence, and all the scary stuff that was being shown. I also had to stay off of Facebook for a while, for the same reasons.
Certain noises would make me cringe. Crumpling of potato chip bags, the beeps of the phone when my mom would make a call, sirens, chewing, anything loud, or screechy, as well as things that weren't even there, such as... someone writing on a chalkboard. Anytime I would see, or hear something scary, I would get super cold, and I'd go into shock. My body temperature would just drop, and it was like, the energy was being sucked right out of me.
I also developed food sensitivity, which is a very common thing when it comes to spiritual awakenings. There were, and still are foods I have to stay away from. I'm much more mindful about what I eat. A lot of the foods and beverages I use to enjoy, effect me differently now. When I first started going through this process, I lost my appetite. This was due to stress, nausea, and because of all of the changes I was going through. I lost a lot of weight, and that really scared me! Fortunately, I got my appetite back, and I'm finally putting the weight back on. How I managed to get through it, all by myself, is a mystery to me. But... somehow, I was able to pick myself right back up, and I just kept going.
You might be wondering why someone would want to continue going through something like this, and why I didn't go to a doctor. The truth is, I didn't really have a choice. This thing was not going away, and I had to face it. Had I gone to a doctor, what exactly would I have told him? I just didn't think I'm psychic, I'm hearing voices, or I'm seeing dead people, was going to cut it. If I were to go to just any kind of doctor, I could be misdiagnosed, and they might put me on something, but the thing is, even if I were to go on whatever medication they would prescribe, I would still have these gifts. There is no cure for this thing! Let's just say, it is the gift that keeps on giving.
As challenging as it can be, and as uncomfortable as it has been at times, I get it now. I had to break a little bit, in order to get to where I am now. That is true in any difficult situation. It gets worse before it gets better, and the good news is, it has gotten much better!
When I first tried to explain this to people, I think I may have jumped the gun too soon. I can understand why things went the way they did. After my meltdown, I decided to keep quiet. I needed time to learn, all that I could about Mediumship, and all of these unique abilities, that have been hidden inside of me all my life. It was something I had to figure out on my own.
Now that I know more about it, and understand what it all means, I realize being a Medium is an amazing thing, and now I want the whole world to know about it. People need to understand that I am not like everybody else, and I'm totally okay with that! I am not ashamed of who I am, and why should I be? I was born this way!
These abilities are a blessing from God, and I am truly grateful! I'm going to be doing so many wonderful things with these gifts!
I now know what my life's purpose is!
I have awakened!
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